Nervous Breakdown > Positive Breakdown
Thesis: that a nervous breakdown or emotional breakdown is a time
of personality breakdown that can be an opportunity for a
healthy authentic identity to emerge like a butterfly from a cacoon.
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Hartwell M.Sc. is a valued writer and
therapist who brings a new and healthy attitude toward life and
love. This material on 'Nervous breakdown' is an example
of George going deeper into the common experience of a nervous
breqakdown - often a painful, confusing and frightening time - to
show that it is a time for personality transformation.
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From George's perspective the definition of a nervous breakdown
is a painful time of transition out of the old dysfunctional
personality pattern, a painful death of the old identity, so
that a healthy identity can take its place. The process of
dying to an old personality creates a state of identity confusion so
powerful that it feels like we are dying. |
Nervous Breakdown
What is the definition of a nervous
breakdown?
In medical terms the definition of a nervous breakdown
uses terms like 'an acute emotional or psychological collapse.'
Any description of the event it put entirely in negative terms.
No hopeful perspective is offerred. However,
nervous breakdown is not an official medical diagnosis.
Instead, 'nervous
breakdown' is a lay term that conveys an important truth or
insight. This lay term conveys the idea that something is
breaking down. Nobody ever said what was breaking down.
It is time to change that. Time to define what is the
'something' that breaks down in an emotional or nervous breakdown.
It is clear to me the 'something'
that is breaking down in a 'nervous breakdown' is a dysfunctional
personality pattern. This pattern no longer works. The
person's inner self - the human spirit - will no longer sustain
it. It has not being working and it is time to let go and find
something better.
What personality patterns breakdown in a nervous breakdown?
Most often the pattern that is
breaking down is either 'People Pleasing' or 'Super
Responsible.' These are the main two patterns. Let me
introduce them to you.
Definition of a People Pleaser
There are three articles on the People Pleaser on
this site so my description can be short.
As adults people pleasers gain their identity from others. They
let others define who they are and what is expected in a relationship
or situation. The adult People Pleaser aften define life in
terms of doing right. They try to avoid offending anyone or
hurting anyone.
People Pleasers have been trained not to get angry. Most
Christians wrongly believe that it is sinful to to be angry or
assertive and often they avoid being assertive or standing up for
themselves. They have trouble saying "no" because
someone might get hurt or be offended. The result is lots of
boundary confusion.
Closely related with avoiding anger is avoidance of their
aggressive side. Aggression sounds bad until one realizes there
is a time and place for aggression. When you want to accomplish
a goal, it helps to be aggressive. Consider hockey players
without aggression or salespeople. Avoid aggressive and you
become passive and do not accomplish much.
It does not help relationships if you are completely
passive-aggressive. Then you send people double messages and
lack integrity.
People pleasers can be so focused on serving others and doing the
right thing that their significant others feel alone. They are
'Marthas' in the kitchen serving and missing out real fellowship.
Rather than developing their own identity with independent
tastes, thoughts, feelings, needs, choices and personality, the
People pleaser has a 'pseudo-personality.' It is impossible to
be intimate with a pseudo-personality do one's spouse will feel
lonely and isolated even though you are married.
People pleasers as children learn or decide that their position in
the family and the love they receive is dependent on their good
behaviour. Some of the natural expressions of childhood are stifled
in order to 'be a good boy' or 'be a nice girl.' Some pretending
occurs. A false personality emerges that pleases the key people in
the family and ensures continued love and avoids rejection and isolation.
To the extent that the People Pleaser adjustment fails to meet our
real inner needs an inner discontent will build up. We will find
ourselves dissatisfied with our life. If married we may come to the
wrong belief that our marriage partner is why we are discontent when
it is our own dysfunctional life pattern that must go. We can go up
different blind alleys to find what is missing in our life and just
cause pain for our loved ones and ourselves.
Definition of a Super-Responsible
Have you been told that you are too serious? Have trouble having fun?
Take on the cares of the world? You could be caught in the over-responsible
personality pattern.
The over-responsible person may have been the oldest child in
a large family and given much responsibility. Perhaps mother and
father were not there to care for them or their siblings and that
responsibility fell heavily upon their shoulders.
If either parent is emotionally immature, out of control, demanding
of care, the child may become super-responsible. This includes
situations where a parent is alcoholic and loosing control when
drunk, when a parent is physically abusive or sexually abuses the
child. In such situations the child tries to grow up too fast. We
lose our childhood.
If the marriage looks unstable to the children or parents are
physically or emotionally harming one another in ways that frighten
the child. If there is a lot of arguing that scares the child. In
each and any of these situations a child may react by developing the
over-responsible pattern.
Adults who grow up with this pattern have trouble with boundaries and
try to do too much. They have trouble co-operating with others and
trusting that others will do their part.
Such adults are often very caring people and very attentive to the
needs of others. They are very responsible and can be counted on to
be the pillar of the family, church or business. They tend to feel to
blame when anything goes wrong. They feel they must respond when
anyone has a need. They feel guilty easily and live with a lot of self-condemnation.
The over-responsible personality pattern has a personality breakdown
because the over-responsible does not take care of themselves. They
do not see that their own needs are met. They may burn themselves out
trying to help everyone. They may become depressed when it is clear
they cannot rescue their family or save their marriage from collapse.
They feel they have failed at their life calling, that they are a
failure. But they consider it immature to take care of
themselves. This is a boundary issue.
How a painful experience - a 'nervous
breakdown' - is an opportunity for positive growth
My definition of a Nervous breakdown
is a time of deep painful identity transformation. There
is anxiety and confusion because of the personality
disintegration. The fear is the loss of identity.
However, one must move through personality breakdown so that a
healthy identity can emerge. This new identity will be
healthier and better reflect the core self, our inner soul or spirit.
Positive emotional growth requires that we shed old personality
patterns. The old must die so the new can come. Just as
there is a time for the snake to shed its skin; there are times for
identity transformation. While medical doctors whine that
"nerves don't breakdown," I know this: often
a 'nervous breakdown'
is a significant life crisis, a transition time, an opportunity to
leave behind the old and discover the new or, if not new, perhaps,
the real core identity - the real more natural you.
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Thus a time when a dysfunctional personality
pattern is breaking down can also be a time for a new healthier
personality pattern to emerge.
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What does a nervous breakdown look like? Think of it as a family role
that became a personality pattern that is becoming less and less
satisfying. As the process of death of the old identity gains
momentum the sense of depression, confusion and anxiety deepens.
This identity crisis is disturbing, disorienting and frightening
because you feel out of control.
Does "a positive disintegration / nervous breakdown"
come on suddenly? No, not necessarily, it may come in a series of
crisis over several years. You may be in a process of getting in
touch with your inner child over several years. You may have a sense
of confusion and crisis that has lasted several months. What is
happening?
A personality pattern breaks down is because
it has outlived its dysfunctional purpose. There is too
much cost and pain in maintaining it. There is too little benefit in
maintaining the old pattern. It is time to move on. Well it
isn't easy to die, but the old must die, we must let go, so that the
new identity that better reflects your real inner self can come.
Letting go feels like dieing because we don't know who we will be if
we let go of the old identity.
Nervous breakdowns can be positive.
While the old pattern is disintegrating a new pattern is waiting to
be born. A new and better you may emerge. This is what is meant by
'Positive Disintegration' - term coined by Kazimierz Dabrowski.
Positive Disintegration
Dabrowski, a Polish psychiatrist and psychologist, developed the
Theory of Positive Disintegration over his lifetime of clinical and
academic work. The Theory of Positive Disintegration is a novel
approach to personality development. My theory is not a replication
of Dabrowski's work; but his idea of positive disintegration has been
the seed for my own thinking and for my theory - the process outlined here. |
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For more about Nervous breakdown:
Remember in childhood when the new tooth is ready to come in the old
tooth becomes loose. Then the old tooth falls out. The new tooth
wants to be emerge. In the same way the emergence of the healthy you
pushes the old you along.
In the "nervous break down" we find ourselves shedding our
SELF - like a snake skin. During the shedding process we feel
disoriented, confused about our identity and, therefore we are
anxious. We don't know what is going on and we fear that we are going crazy.
But no. You are not going crazy. You are, however, in a painful
time of transition. You are dying to the old identity and you don't
know what the new will look like. Of course that is confusing and
scary. Yes it is a vulnerable time. I wish for you that someone
around you understood and could guide you through this valley of
death. That guide needs to understand and have faith in the
process. To help guide you through I will supply a road map of
this new landscape.
Guidebook to the Nervous Breakdown
When you feel like you are in a 'nervous breakdown,' it is
likely that you have been stuck in one of two or three very common
personality patterns. If your 'nervous breakdown' is of the
'positive disintegration' type, you are becoming 'unglued.' At
the end of a positive disintegration you will no longer be stuck in
these patterns. You will be free!
Here are some of the personality patterns that go through positive
disintagration. Have you been a 'people
pleaser'' focused on being nice, good, perfect, being
right, not offending anyone. (Called Performance Orientation by
John and Paula Sandford.)
Are you a 'super-responsible'
lives with self-criticism, tends not to have fun or focus on their
own needs but id always is there to meet the needs of others.
'Super-responsible' says "Yes" to every demand, meets
everyone's need, does work that others should be doing and feels
guilty when anything goes wrong. See also Spontaneity
Attitude Test. (Called Parental Inversion by John and
Paula Sandford.)
A third pattern that precipitates a time of great distress is the
breakdown of our Self Image as an Idol. This is a little harder
to describe so I will only mention this in passing. For more
information see: Restoring the Christian Family, by John and Paula
Sandford, Chapter 17 - Nebuchudneezer's Image.
John and Paula Sandford
John and Paula Sandford, in Transformation of the Inner Man speak of
the People Pleaser as 'Performance Orientation.' The
"Super Responsible" person John and Paula Sandford
call: 'Parental Inversion.' Their ministry base in called Elijah
House. Their prophetic insights in Christian counselling include
the identification of Performance Orientation, Parental Inversion and
Self Image. |
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I believe that there comes a time in our life when we have outgrown
our familiar personality pattern. We may or may not experience
frustration with the pattern but it no longer works for us. There may
be anger, frustration, depression because we are not happy with ourselves.
I always treat the experience of a person's 'nervous breakdown,' as a
potential opportunity to leave the old personality behind and move on
to higher integration. The hope is a 'true to self' identity.
Of course it helps that I know what the personality patterns are that
'break down.' I have found the concept of "Positive
Disintegration" useful through many years of professional
counseling exprerience. I understand this process. I have
coached people through it. I am on familiear ground.
At some time in your life or mine, we will likely experience life
crisis. We find that there comes a time when we cannot carry on. We
cannot pretend anymore. We cannot hold things together. We cannot go
on in the same pattern of life. The burden of life has become too
much. Our life comes apart. Maybe this is a time for renewal -
a life transforming time!
When this happens we feel we are cracking up. We feel like we are
having a nervous breakdown. We are uncertain about our identity. Our
central beliefs are shaken. We question all that we have striven to do.
Our inner motor runs down: whatever has driven us this far does not
hold the same interest; the work we did gladly does not to bring us
the same reward; the way we have always related to people does not
work for us.
We loose are ability or desire to hide what we are feeling. Our
hardness, our coldness, our reserve, our emotional control is gone - broken.
We find ourselves more in touch with our emotions. We cry easily. We
are easily touched. Our heart is on the surface.
Times like this need to be expected. Consider them normal. It is a
normal life crisis.
If you can't find a professional therapist with the wisdom and grace
to know what is breaking down and how to support you in the process,
I will provide phone support. (1 877 854-3990). A phone consultation
with me can help your sanity, reduce anxiety and give you
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If you fail to find the resources you need you may turn to things
that hurt others or yourself. The solutions we turn to, rather than
getting professional help, often increase are problems. We begin to
give up hope in life. We feel helpless to understand or change our
lives. In other words, we can spiral downwards.
What is happening? What is the power and process of the experience
that feels like a nervous breakdown? How can consulting a
professional help prevent this crisis from spiraling out of control?
Let us look at the dynamics of a nervous breakdown.
The dynamics of a 'nervous breakdown'
Of course nerves do not break down. But it is a common observation
that physical development is characterized by periods of
consolidation followed by periods of disorganization then a higher
level of consolidation. This process happens almost yearly for the
first few years of life.
In cognitive development and in the model of Jean Piaget - a Swiss
Psychologist - cognitive development passed through distinct stages.
In his theory, the child develops a conception of the world called a
schema. New information is incorporated into the existing scheme. He
calls this assimilation.
In Piaget's rich thinking there are also times when the existing
schema cannot adequately incorporate the new information. The schema
needs to be dismantled and replaced with a new schema. This more
revolutionary process he called: accommodation.
In science when the existing scientific models cannot hold the new
data gracefully there comes a time when scientific models must
change. This revolutionary change is called a Paradigm Shift.
My thesis is that our personality adjustment experiences similar
periods when the old patterns break up so that a new more functional
pattern can take their place. In my view a higher level of
organization may follow a period of disorganization. Disintegration
may be followed by integration and consolidation in a healthier
place. I will, after Dabrowski, call such a process Positive
Disintegration.
What drives us into this period of personality disintegration?
Is there an inner wisdom or destiny that insists on fulfillment in
our life?
We can posit an inner discontent that grows when our
personality adjustment is not bringing us the rewards that we long
for. When the divergence between our real inner needs and the
feelings generated by our current personality adjustment is great,
and when this short fall continues over a long time, this inner
discontent grows in strength. I would posit that a high level of
discontent results in a time of depression or a time of nervous breakdown.
What is happening to me?
Almost by definition when you experience a nervous breakdown you will
not know what is going on. You will be confused and fearful as you
ask: "What is happening to me?"
I like Dabrowski's insight that we can have times of personality
confusion and disorganization that result in higher integration. This
insight is positive and gives hope to those in such a time.
It will help if your counselor understands this process and is able
to support you through it. It is reassuring when someone clearly
understands what you are going through and are confident of the
possibility of a positive outcome. In such times we need hope.
Anxiety, panic attacks, depression
My experience with such emotional breakdowns leads me to posit
two different types of personality patterns that break down. In both
cases the nervous breakdown will be characterized by anxiety,
perhaps panic attacks, depression and identity confusion.
Identity confusion - "I don't know"
The clinical indication of identity confusion is the repetitive use
of the sentence: "I don't know." One use of that
sentence is an immediate clue that there is identity confusion
and repetitions confirm it. Usually a client will confirm my sense of
this when I ask them if it is possible that they are going through a
time of identity confusion.
At such times I reassure clients that I will be with them in this
process and help them to clarify and consolidate their identity. With
some clients this means that I need to point out that their attention
is too much on the other people in their life and I am not hearing
them talk about their own feelings, observation, thoughts and choices.
The over-responsible / codependent pattern
(Sandford Parental Inversion)
When professional help is needed!
I have already suggested that a counselor that understands, supports,
gives hope and can support and encouraging a client's identity is
helpful. In the midst of a life crisis support and strategic guidance
is appreciated and helpful.
If the crisis is not too severe, and does not involve the breakdown
of the marriage, it may be possible to provide core belief therapy.
The personality adjustment is based on care beliefs that can be
challenged and replaced with more positive beliefs.
Listening Prayer Therapy
My own particular therapy for this is my own "Listening Prayer
Therapy" which involves a variety of strategies and techniques
for healing the cognitive core of the personality. I make use of
prayer and the imagination to discover core beliefs that were
established during childhood and to successfully replace these with
healthier beliefs.
For the People Pleaser just coming to an understanding of
unconditional love can be life transforming. A belief in
unconditional love is easily supported in Biblical texts such as
"God so loved the world that He gave his own son" (John
3:16) and church theology of salvation by faith alone not by our
works. I have seen a discussion of this with one in the Christian
tradition be life changing.
Stop inner self-abuse
The over-responsible person may need encouragement for disengaging
from carrying the weight of the world. There is a healthy place for
learning to let go of the load and let God be God and carry more of
the weight. Jesus call: "Come unto me you that are weary and
heavy laden and I will give you rest" is worth meditating upon
(Matthew 11:28).
I expose the pattern of inner abuse and condemnation and work to
break that pattern and substitute healthy self-care. The use of a
transactional analysis Parent-Adult-Child diagram to explain this has
always been well received.
Core Belief Therapy
The People Pleaser lives with the belief that I must do right to be
loved. Unconditional love says that we have a right to be ourselves
and that we are loved when we win and when we lose, when we are good
and when we are naughty, when we laugh and when we cry, when we are
sad and when we are mad. We have an identity worth discovering and
expressing. We only know that we are loved when we take the risk of
being real rather than pretending and putting on a show.
The Over-Responsible believes that the sky is falling and my job is
to hold it up. Nobody else can be trusted to do their part I must do
it all myself. They believe that their role in life is to keep the
peace, to mediate, to keep the boat from rocking. They must learn to
trust God and others to do their part; learn it is okay to share the
load; that they are not responsible to save the world and they are
not God.
I have found my methods of "Listening Prayer Therapy" bring
about significant transformation of core beliefs in people's lives
and provide a gentle way of personality transformation. When we
call out to God to "Heal my life" using the methods of
"Listening Prayer Therapy," God's love, truth and power are
there to touch our lives. In this way I find people's lives are
being healed and personality transformed without having to wait for a
nervous breakdown.
© G.C.H. <>< 2003 ©2003
by George
Hartwell M.Sc.
George Hartwell M.Sc. has 30 years experience as a Life
Transformation Therapist and holds a masters degree in clinical
psychology from the University of Calgary, Alberta, Canada. You may
arrange for a personal session or marriage retreat by calling
George. His practice is called Agape Christian Counselling of
Toronto, Ontario, Canada. The Toronto number is (416) 234-1850.
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George Hartwell
Comment from the UK: "Thank you George for helping me to
understand what I have been going through. I read your paper on
Nervous Breakdown and I cried. A true reflection of what I have been
going through over the last 3 years. I don’t feel so frightened
about shedding my skin anymore. Cheers."
Hi George, I read your article, (well it is far more than that in
reality,) on nervous breakdown and wanted to thank you for posting
this on the web. Perhaps the most telling comment is that of an
identity crisis being a natural phenomena, a time of letting go of
the old self and trusting that a new self will form. And yet,
everything in our societies today tells us to acquire, to consume, to
possess, to be in control, to dread death, to despise weakness and to
distrust our natural selves.
My personal crisis came to a head at the end of '94 early '95, and
now fifteen years later, the experience is still vivid. For me, it
was letting go of what I knew and becoming "I don't know,"
in the sense that this indefinite me could learn, explore, research
myself and others, and enjoy the adventure of being alive.
"I don't know" allowed me to participate in the process of
life as a part of the process. Yes life hurts, but it is also a great
joy and there are many other feelings that exist between and beyond
the polarities that we come to hate and love.
It's not so much self-doubt or even the fear of knowing myself
nowadays, it's more a love of the process of not knowing, and the
process of walking through the unknown is what becomes known.
What's missing is the confusion and what's known is the unknown
nature of an unfolding life. Regards Philip James.